Day 2 - Glowing gratitude
Okay! So after a slightly heavy couple of days, this morning I felt a lot lighter! The sun has been glowing all day long, birds are chirping away and the blue sky has those endorphins running through my veins.
Spent a good couple of hours outside on the Epsom Racecourse and found a beautiful little spot to do some yoga and soak in the sunshine whilst melting into the grassy hills. A couple of bumblebees buzzed overhead, flies landed on my feet and I didn’t even waft them off as I heard a thought pop into my head, "Oh these flies have no idea about coronavirus, let the little being live in peace.” Before I knew it, my top found its way off my back, socks were stripped from my feet and my head was nestled in the thick long grassy blades. The picturesque fields rolled before me and I found myself indulging in the abundant beauty of the land, letting go of yesterdays stress. I love the countryside.
After a phone call with my mum and a few friends, my glass was definitely more, ‘half full than half empty’ today. BRILLIANT! (On proof reading this sentence I read, “My wine glass was more half full…” WINE glass!? haha Anyone else?!)
We enjoyed a lovely lunch in the garden and soaked up more sunshine as we discussed how radical it was that we should be enjoying such joyful lunch in the sunny garden whilst outside, in the ‘the real world’ so many are suffering and the economy is taking a hard, HARD hit, (gulp). Our conversation also turned to puppy talk. YES. A puppy is on the cards for Dotty and we are all super excited to find the perfect little pupster to love and play with (for now and always- not just for lockdown!). We’re still looking so I’ll be sure to update as and when!
Diabetes management has been good today, sugars felt the movement benefit from the mornings yoga sessions and walk. The diabetics annual retinal eye screening appointments are always a staple in the diary and there must be many which have been cancelled due to hospitals needing to close/limit non urgent appointment etc. A letter came through telling me that mine had been cancelled but tbh I’m not really fussed at this moment in time.
Productivity wise, I haven’t been super happy with the fact that I haven’t yet come up with an ingenious way to make loads of money yet. ‘Join the club?” Sandy and I took a long evening stroll along The Downs in the pitch black and had to entire racecourse to ourselves. WE LOVE IT! We’ve been heading out on an evening for a debrief of his day (he’s working super dooper hard and truly ‘working from home’), and we had a good brainstorm on the topic of my future ventures. We discussed lots of avenues and approaches I can explore which will prove successful in the short term and long run. On the whole it was a really stimulating talk and I felt super grateful to have such a supportive and encouraging boyfriend to speak to about my woes & hopes. He’s a keeper, for sure. There’s lots of time to utilise now and the feeling of not doing enough or that imposter syndrome is a mighty competitor I must defeat. I will defeat. So making small steps, daily, heading towards my bigger goals will get me there. Just need to “keep swimming”.
The stars were out in full force, the North Star has been glowing brightly over the past 5 days and as the weather has been super beautiful in the day with clear blue skies, the cloudless night skies are just as dreamy. Chilly, but dreamy. I almost forgot about the whole pandemic.
A Stunning sunset.
Grateful for every sunset I witness and thank my lucky stars.
